Self awakening

one week left and i am still here doing nothing, how nice. i should smile at my own failure when it comes. don't u agree? tearing is not one of my ways of showing what i see. what am i to do? life is a mystery to me which i don't bother to figure out! jsut want to live it the way it is. why should i find out everything when soon all the ideas and answers will be buried deep underneath with me?
well, this is sick and horrifying! DAMMIT!