Mistaken immortality

all is lost to me. everything is fading away. days of joy emptied by the ways of sufferings. dying by the hands of my own greed. ending the time i wasted on feeding my own life. tearing my eyes, preventing them from crying. killed my emotions to escape from the endless suffering i am to feel.

parting from my body, leaving it to become an empty shell. laid dead without a soul, slowly perish to the ground, becoming the dirt man walks one. the thought of endless time firghtens me, wanting nothing more but to be freed from it. a prison i am bound to be in, forever blinded by the darkness that takes the lights that shines on humans away. suffocate for eternity.

immortality, i had asked for and given to me is forever suffering. what had been done to me is what i asked. forever shall i dwell in this worthless world to endure all that the other side of life has to offer. i have asked to be life and yet i became death. what have i done to deserve this? it is because i am a human who is made to sin?