expression of desire, self reflection

hatred is all i've got in life. nothing shall take that away from me for it's like oxygen to my lungs. a food being fed into my thoughts. happiness can never be found in me, fear took sent it away. death smiled as i cry, life tormented by me as every single coul i have encountered shall be sent back home. every blood i tasted shall be mine alone. every soul i slaughtered will be like joy given as a gift by pain.

my life is dead, filled with desire as no one dare to touch. it is mine to control, hate it? just leave it be. bleeding eyes be the cure to let me see the truth hidden behind lies. men would tear every skin they have just to see what made them die. screams of pain are songs made by the devil. some may enjoy but i abhor.

alone i shall walk forever. a mistake sent to earth for balance. every passing moment shall be a memories that feeling will be born by them, forcing my mind out of sanity. cracking my mind, every second i shall inshale my own blood and eat nothing by thin air.

why am i to live when my life is not for me to choose? just let me die and let the ones controlling me live. i have enough of this prison. the freedom i have is controlled by selfish thinkings. the past shall torment the future, making our beloved lives into a nightmare we wished to get out of. just let me die and rest, time seemed infinite.