untitled VI

Words had been said to me that I’ve got no chance to go on with it. I threw them away but I myself is not sure how am I to face the world like this or how to react to what I am to feel while trying my best to handle the days that are to come. All of these are blurry but I am certain that I shall not let go of what I had said or promised.

Opened my heart and wanting my promise to stay there. Angered those around me and yet I feel them comforting me, loving the pain they give to me cause I know I have the strength to go on with my choice.

I shall remember this day that I had ignored all words, respecting no one beside me. I’ve done all this out of love. I shall miss you, dear. Miss the days you made me smile. I’ve always loved the way you love but I couldn’t love you back. Knowing the people around me shall try to beak what we had together.

It’s just not fair. But I guess this is part of the sufferings that one has to live through in life. How I wish it would go away. I shall leave my love to you here for your presence will only kill me more. Voices made sweet in my ears, purifying melodies. Even if you are still here, I shall not be there with you. There shall be times where I will need you in my arms for comfort but I shall have to live with the fact that you are not here anymore.

Imagined my life with you shall no longer in my mind. Thickened my feelings, not wanting to think of you. I begged to forget and yet my mind seems to be against me. I loved you then, and I shall love you now but I shall not be there to do so. Missing you while I waited behind you. Missing you while we share words.