forgotten memories

Quietly I calmed myself down and then angered my feelings again knowing well that it may do no good for me. Refusing to take back what I had done, making sure none surpasses my sins. On nights I prayed, asking for your answer and yet none returned.

My beloved, the last I will love. Death means nothing, as long as you’re safe. I won’t know what to say or do but when the time is right, I will know how to react to the moment. Blinded by your beauty, deafened by your sweet voice, my world has become meaningful again. My heart once locked, keys thrown away never letting anyone in. but you found them and my trust was unlocked, given to you as you gave yours to me. You were my light in the darkest hours, my soul when my faith was lost.

Soft, you were. How sweet of you. To hold my hands. How sweet of you to smile when I was down. Helped me up to my feet whenever I fall. Brighten my life, darkened my past. Wonderful, an angel bestowed upon earth. How close were we together? Could we have been closer to each other? Could we have changed the way we are now? Could we have made a difference then?

I am just a walking shadow that happens to pass you by. Among the crowd that happens to slip pass you. I shall live among the dead when we are to talk. I shall be a stranger to our children’s eyes. A father they never had before. Tears escaped from my eyes when I see a lie had been told to you. Someone believed to be a love you never had loved before. All is lost, never could they be returned. A cruel goodbye.

A wish is all I needed and yet it doesn’t exist. My heart bled when I see you in front of me. Looking at each other knowing that past memories never existed. Days spent thrown away in just a moment.