Emptied Memoir

Meaningless to be apart, I stayed by your side until the purposes that kept us far died along with your faith. Ripped from your heart, I dare not to place the blame on you. The sufferings you have endured, I will carry them with me. An innocent angel should be left alone for happiness to comfort them. Still, I wished for a hopeless thought that you may remember me as someone you had once cherished.

So it seemed that I am a faded memory none dared to grasp. Burning the illusions of you from my mind, I tried to walk away and yet I still tried to find my place in you. Where has the fault appeared that made our future turned from a beautiful dream into a worthless nightmare?

I am to be alone from this day and travel to a distance until my presence no longer lingers around you. Sweet beauty made neither for happiness nor sadness, I wished I could stay. The hope we had for our days and nights to live burnt into ashes before my very own eyes. What use that may come for me to cry over passed sadness when I am to endure the pain for eternity. My fate has betrayed me; my own soul has left me. If I could, I would wish to stay for another day but I wonder if that’s what I desire?

No one to seek for advices, I looked upon myself for joy. Denied my own flaws I tried so hard to forsake my own life. At last I could now ask and ponder if the choice I had made is right for me or for you?