Forgotten Memories II

Sleepless nights, cried in tears. Tormented by my past memories. The suffering that I had to endure could be death waiting patiently for my soul. In the world I wondered searching for a cure to ease my pain, wishing I could be in slumber without hurtful thoughts impairing my mind.

Time awaiting my answer, kept holding on just for me to act and yet I froze and done nothing to brighten my future. A friend, once an enemy got me up on my feet again, entrusting my life with him, my future and my past. Questions fumbled unto my mind; breaking the barrels between good and bad, saw a shinning light hanging in the sky, unable to touch it. A hole, I guess for me to get out of this plane.

Your love, I will die for. Your love I will love for. Your love, I pondered all my life; to leave it be or take it back. How am I to decide when sorrow follows my every move? Should I retake what is rightfully mine, one will burn and anger will control the actions of an offspring whom I dread and yet is my replacement. Should I leave what I desire, my heart will die not knowing what it could have been when I hold you in my arms again.

Happiness exists solely in dreams. Reality is made into life, progressed its way up to the top, opening my eyes to the possibility of dying from a broken heart. My love, I have lost. Forgotten is a word that fits my name for now. Nameless is another to satisfy my sorrow. Lost from your eyes, lost from my beloveds. One I could have loved shall be loved by another. Forgive me for letting you go. Emptiness will be felt in your heart for now but soon it shall be gone. I am not worthy to be at your presence. Just a worm finding its hole to hide.

From the side I watched as you all grow old. A smile on my face knowing you all are happy. Cried silently without a sound. Unheard from the world for God will be the only One who hears. I am lost, forgotten. Misfit sent here to give joy to you. That’s enough to make me happy for a short moment but it is enough. My bleeding heart will take no more from this tragedy and I shall say this once and for all. Goodbye, my love.