06-06-06

Petrified in a moment, wishing for it to fade. I seek a calm river, flowing through the valley of forgiveness. Ended my journey I couldn’t dare to take. Feared so much, I had to force a depression unto myself. Desire turned to desperation. That was when I began to fulfill my needs with worthless items.

Am I in denial or saddened by the moment? Should I let them out or just let them go? Confused but not frightened. Disappointed but not angered. Sadden but not torn. Acceptance, how I hate this word. It may murder my sanity but save my pride. Which should I choose? In the end, I could only admire.

I’ll sit by the side, waiting for words to reach me. My voice taken became a mute not daring to speak again. My eyes blinded by the tears I shed over you. Side by side we might sit and I’ll be a stranger to you. Smiles may be exchanged but that’s all there is to it. I’ll see the outcome, not moving a inch. I’ll wait for the silence to pass, trying to hear the coming sound that may or may not save me. I am no different from the fallen rain, pondering on the surface where I had landed. There I’ll wait until the sun rise and take me back up to the sky again.

Now, I’ll wait for myself to regain my own strength. Eyes widely opened once again and be able to feel the feelings that may comfort my desires.