Ending of a chapter
Moments passing, sun setting and we sat quietly looking. Warmth, I wondered, will it last? Smiling happily hiding everything else behind. My heart broken down, failing to achieve its desire.
Have I slipped? I guess so. Tears began to flow and I wondered, are they happy or sad? Replied saying both and yet it doesn’t satisfy me. “Beautiful sky turning into darkness. Are my eyes tired or is just me?” question asked with an answer we both knew and yet I dare not to reply.
So we waited for the moment. Every second that passed worsen myself. Should I have lived in denial? Could it have made things different? Could I have made things change? Regrets filling me whole. I wept silently beside, not wanting to let things go. Hands held tightly wishing them away but it made no difference.
19 years of living is not enough. Unfair, unreasonable. After all, I am just selfish. Deceased parents unable to hold their child, cried for their lost, feared for their health. I am just plain selfish. Should I be the one, then the other shall suffer. A choice men couldn’t choose and yet they did. A selfish reason for a selfish purpose. Who has the rights or will to choose? Reflecting back as I pondered.
“Alas, we are here. Warm and comfortable. Away from those that opposes, away from the sins of dissenters. And so we are alone now. Let us stay the way we are now and wait for the setting sun to descend. Will we ever meet again, I wonder? A moment to soon for me to leave I guess.”
“What has passed, please let them go. Keep no memories remained in your mind. Let the sadness flow away like a calm river. Keeping everything in place, taking them apart slowly without colliding in harm’s way. Forgive me, this is begged of you.”
Why have you set? The sky has no limits, no boundaries or rules. Please stay on top of us, shinning your beautiful light upon us, keeping us from the dark. Silence overwhelmed us. Not a breath could be heard. It ended, without a sound. Silence made to be a blessing from God ended up becoming a fear I wished I wasn’t afraid of. I just don’t feel like letting go.
Goodnight for now and sleep quietly in peace. I’ll wait again for a moment when the sun rises, bringing more than its light.
Have I slipped? I guess so. Tears began to flow and I wondered, are they happy or sad? Replied saying both and yet it doesn’t satisfy me. “Beautiful sky turning into darkness. Are my eyes tired or is just me?” question asked with an answer we both knew and yet I dare not to reply.
So we waited for the moment. Every second that passed worsen myself. Should I have lived in denial? Could it have made things different? Could I have made things change? Regrets filling me whole. I wept silently beside, not wanting to let things go. Hands held tightly wishing them away but it made no difference.
19 years of living is not enough. Unfair, unreasonable. After all, I am just selfish. Deceased parents unable to hold their child, cried for their lost, feared for their health. I am just plain selfish. Should I be the one, then the other shall suffer. A choice men couldn’t choose and yet they did. A selfish reason for a selfish purpose. Who has the rights or will to choose? Reflecting back as I pondered.
“Alas, we are here. Warm and comfortable. Away from those that opposes, away from the sins of dissenters. And so we are alone now. Let us stay the way we are now and wait for the setting sun to descend. Will we ever meet again, I wonder? A moment to soon for me to leave I guess.”
“What has passed, please let them go. Keep no memories remained in your mind. Let the sadness flow away like a calm river. Keeping everything in place, taking them apart slowly without colliding in harm’s way. Forgive me, this is begged of you.”
Why have you set? The sky has no limits, no boundaries or rules. Please stay on top of us, shinning your beautiful light upon us, keeping us from the dark. Silence overwhelmed us. Not a breath could be heard. It ended, without a sound. Silence made to be a blessing from God ended up becoming a fear I wished I wasn’t afraid of. I just don’t feel like letting go.
Goodnight for now and sleep quietly in peace. I’ll wait again for a moment when the sun rises, bringing more than its light.
