Self Enlightment

lived in a maze, feeding of the haze,
backed myself from the worst to waste.
can't escape these days, i'll deny my ways.
tears of joy gets on my nerves,
i think i'm on the verge of dying.
placed myself in a wooden shelter,
made me whole in a broken cover.
someone save me please,
able just to please.
i can hardly be awake,
i just can't take it.

i'm just a soul who's lost,
blinded by my only flaws.
killing for the days i made for my own cause.
my future looks bleak,
my visions are weak,
i'm just a corpse which is dying from this.

seeing staring eyes,
feeling my demise.
from the liars that tend to lies,
but they'll never see what i despise.

The line from the beginning of your ancestors will end with you. Oh God you are amazing. The last of your family, the end of your name. In me you have stayed and yet I never found out the meaning of you to me. Endless suffering I have felt as you stayed and did nothing to live. My strength is yours to waste. My sanity as your playground to break. Years have you made yourself comfortable in me, ending up not wanting to leave. Although I have suffered, I am glad for your doing. Never will I live in denial so I have accepted the purpose of dependence. My faith never lifts my will and I ended up not hearing my own conscience even if I tried. Finally I have had enough. My thoughts have piled themselves together forming their own expressions. Our life shall be turned, one will walk on each shoes. My attentions never left you. Day and night I shall watch, never bothering myself, feeling down as long as you are hurting. Never denounce my fear as I am afraid of them even if death is the only option.

You are the last of your blood
Oh God you are amazing
Apart of me but which are you?
Drained my blood keeping yourself alive
Staying in not wanting out
Pleased for you for the deeds
Fine with the false concept of independence
Never lift my faith up high
Could never hear your voice
Even if I tried to make them
Enough has been felt by this
I’ll let you suffer more then I have
My eyes unmoved by things
They are upon you day and night
I won’t feel bothered if you are
Never lift a finger to inflict my fear
Even if death wants my life