Self awakening

one week left and i am still here doing nothing, how nice. i should smile at my own failure when it comes. don't u agree? tearing is not one of my ways of showing what i see. what am i to do? life is a mystery to me which i don't bother to figure out! jsut want to live it the way it is. why should i find out everything when soon all the ideas and answers will be buried deep underneath with me?
well, this is sick and horrifying! DAMMIT!

Uncertain of Myself!

Why am I still updating this blog??!?!?!?!? Can anyone tell me why! Nobody ever visits this site anyways. Well, I guess is for fun then. Writng stuffs even I myself don't read. ( My english sux so forgive me for any mistakes. ) SPM is 2 weeks away and I am still here. Why can't I feel the pressure? I know i sux and still I feel no stress. I guess it will kick in on the first day of the test then uh? Do you readers agree....? I can only hear crickets singing, no voice at all! That's that then.

(UNTITLED)

We sometimes seems to forget ourselves. Who we are or what we are capable of doing? These are the questions which not much people hate. The things that happened to me made me think of what I am capable of doing and what is exactly right? It's very vexing to think of it but what the hell am I going to do? I'll have to find out sooner or later. There's no way that I can hide from these thoughts.
All that I hope is I could find what I am to find and just live my life with questions answered and know my true self(THIS SENTENCE SUX BAD. UNCOPYRIGHTED) There's not much for me to say except for this sux. Dammit!

Moment of Explosion

Hell today. Damn SESCO, there I say it. The decoder went KABOOM!!!! Hell now it is useless. They better pay up. Everyone in my ares is complaining. Yeah. I have to stop with this. That's all. Can't think of anything more. Dammit

Expression of Creativity(Uncopyrighted)

Bones in the water and dust in my lungs

Absorbing archaic like a sponge

The ultimate way is the way you control

But you can stay if you detach your soul

Bury the present and squeeze out the past

The ones you endear to never last

Chemical burns and the animalistic

I'm just anohter harline psuedo-statistic

Can you feel this?

I'm dying to feel this

Can you feel this?

Blood on the paperand skin on my teeth

Trying to commit to whats beneath

To find the time is to lose the momentum

You learn the lessons and immediately forget them

Automatic and out of my reach

Consult all the waste to find the key

Minimal life and the polysyllabic

I'm just another blank page - push the button, pull the rage

Can you feel this?

I'm dying to feel this

Can you feel this?

I am all, but what am I?

Another number that isn't equal to any of you

I control, but I comply

Pick me apart, then pick up the pieces

I'm uneven

I am the damaged one

All my life and the damage done

Can you feel this?

I'm dying to feel this

Can you feel this?

I'm dying to feel this

I am all, but what am I?

Another number that isn't equal to any of you

I control, but I comply

Pick me apart, then pick up the pieces

I'm uneven

Birthday of the Year

Well, everything is over. Another day has passed as a usual boring day. Often to get over the fact that I have wasted another day of my living days. Wondered if I could have done something more. Dammit.
At least today I enjoyed myself, only during night. Had a suprise which shocked me for a while. I sux at expressing myself being shocked or amazed. Mostly, I will keep quiet and leave me head thinking of things which is meaningless. Not shure why but hey, different people, different way of style.
Guess that's it. Have to wake up at 7 tomorrow for law listening, dammit. Can't think of the purpose for it. Only good for girls though but men don't need it.

Law

Law sux!!! Everyone will agree with me when they hear this sentence. Waste of time. Thank God I passed it. Ha!