Peace in between

Here I stayed awaiting nothing. The view of the sky, once made me at ease could never be able to relax my senses. Darkened clouds inferited the purest of the shinning sun. Like vengeful disesases killing the pride of humanity. Forsaken sons of saddened fathers, torn apart by the flaws of men. There I sat begging to breathe once again. Clearing my soul with the creations given by God Himself to cleanse the filth of the world,putting my restless thoughts to sleep.

Sightless eyes

Rejoice in mind, tears in eyes. A forgotten memory visiting its old friend, catching up the old times. The situation has become blameless to anyone. It has only become the thorns on a rose, hurting anyone that dares to grasp it.

So I looked forward, hearing them speak, laughed quietly trying not to disturb. Happiness came to them. Thankfulness held a place in their hearts. So I let them be, not wanting to break their chains. To my left, another smiled. Holding each hands whispering to one another, being glad they replaced hatred with care. So I let them be not wanting to break their chains. To my left, hearing them talk. Bringing old memories up and replacing the pain with understanding reasons. There they resolved emptied promises and endless anger. So I let them be, not wanting to break their chains.

There I sat, alone thinking of the past. Nothing clear came to mind, only visions I wished to have. Neither pain nor happiness, so I wondered what they are? The surrounding darkened, pleasing the seeing eyes. Dimmed light giving enough for the eyes to see. Sweet symphonies playing softly, pleasing my ears. Giving comfort to myself.

What could I see through my blurry eyes? False assumptions deceiving ones heart. Lies that seek a new victim to torment. And I as one will fall on my knees chained to the past. A weaken heart torn by acceptance.

From the bottom I shall rise, despite being held by my thoughts. I will break through the gates, forming my own legions and regain my title as the lord of my mind.

06-06-06

Petrified in a moment, wishing for it to fade. I seek a calm river, flowing through the valley of forgiveness. Ended my journey I couldn’t dare to take. Feared so much, I had to force a depression unto myself. Desire turned to desperation. That was when I began to fulfill my needs with worthless items.

Am I in denial or saddened by the moment? Should I let them out or just let them go? Confused but not frightened. Disappointed but not angered. Sadden but not torn. Acceptance, how I hate this word. It may murder my sanity but save my pride. Which should I choose? In the end, I could only admire.

I’ll sit by the side, waiting for words to reach me. My voice taken became a mute not daring to speak again. My eyes blinded by the tears I shed over you. Side by side we might sit and I’ll be a stranger to you. Smiles may be exchanged but that’s all there is to it. I’ll see the outcome, not moving a inch. I’ll wait for the silence to pass, trying to hear the coming sound that may or may not save me. I am no different from the fallen rain, pondering on the surface where I had landed. There I’ll wait until the sun rise and take me back up to the sky again.

Now, I’ll wait for myself to regain my own strength. Eyes widely opened once again and be able to feel the feelings that may comfort my desires.